There is a God-shaped vacuum in the heart of every person and it can never be filled by any created thing. It can only be filled by God, made known through Jesus Christ.

This quote is attributed to Blaise Pascal, the philosopher and mathematician who lived in the 1600’s. But then again, some believe this is only a modern day paraphrase of what is claimed to be his actual quote which does sound a bit more 17th century to me:

What is it then that this desire and this inability proclaim to us, but that there was once in a man a true happiness of which there now remain to him only the mark and empty trace, which he in vain tries to fill from all his surroundings, seeking from things absent the help he does not obtain in things present? But these are all inadequate, because the infinite abyss can only be filled by an infinite and immutable object, that is to say, only by God Himself.

And then as I Google more, I see that this is felt to actually follow something from St Augustine’s writings from the fourth century:

You have made us for Yourself, O Lord, and our hearts are restless until they find you.

And Biblical source that implies man is created to search for God in Acts 17:27

God wanted them to look for Him and perhaps search all around for Him, though He is not far from any of us.

So what am I left with? The knowledge that God wants us to search for Him - and find Him. That I am not complete without Him.

Then why, sometimes, do I think he might not be there?

It is funny how God leads us to truth when we ask His help to find it. There was a time when I was spending most of my time with people who see no purpose of God. I was letting doubts creep in on even the existence of God. As silly as it sounds, I asked God to lead me in finding His truth. It was during this time that I happened to be in a conversation with a very wise man. He is a professor by trade, and has invested much of his life studying various philosophies and religions of the world. He is well-traveled and even put in a stint in the Peace Corps in the 60’s. He was speaking of studies that scientists were doing to find that part of a cell that is the hole that desires God. Ding, ding, ding, ding. I then realized it – even scientists believe there is something that creates God-desiring holes within us. And at the same time how silly that was. There is no biology that gives a cell a ‘desire’ for something that is philosophical. Yes, there are physical properties of a cell that require reactions to occur that the cell has no control over, but a cell can’t ‘desire’. I had to laugh. That just sealed it for me. Yes, God must exist. If a cell has a ‘desire’ it must come from God. There is no physical property in this world that can give ‘desire’. A cell doesn’t sit around and ponder what it wants from life. So there it was. God again gave me the answer I was seeking.

There truly is a whole holiness of holes.


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